Sunday, October 10, 2010

Going off.......Remain in our memories.



At the break of dawn
Sister have fly the coop
The house has became more quiet
The voice of him , i will never forgot
His hope i will never let it down
His reprimand i will always remembered .
We was just like going back to old time
The laughter that you bring to this family
A bone of contention with you ;
Have every dinner with you at the restaurant ;
The aching with extreme tiredness face ;
Just all that moment , everything that belong to you will always in our memories.
A shiver crept up my spine
After losing you ,
Snail pace time every day ,
Even In dire need of good rest,
We have change to the nocturnal creatures
Just waiting for you to come back .

While waiting for your presence
Deep in our heart ,
Your face will us over the life remember and remain in our memories.

Friday, October 8, 2010

I'm waiting for you to come back....


Every night in the living room waiting for you to come back and have a look of all of us ........... but there is not any sign.Where are you now ...are you fine, is "there" comfort enough for you. We have been miss you all the time.Do you know mummy have been miss you so much . Every night tears that coming out from mum eye........do you know that you didn't even leave a word for her is how hurt her heart. Amithabha , please let her have a look at your face one more time just even one more time is enough of her even in the dream .She has been waiting for you every night ..pls come back . We know that you are around us in this 49 days but please show yourself. The house is so silent not as last time when you come back home ...your voice ...and bring us out to have dinner every time .I'm missing this all of the day . YOU LOVED ME ..... I knew but pls let me have a look of your face.I'm waiting for you to come back........

Sorry for being a treason son for sometimes........................I'm waiting for you to come back..................

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

医生说爸爸......<在生死邊緣徘徊>


泌尿科的手術規模不大,而且多數是風險較低的內視鏡手術,所以,當我遇到擔心病情和害怕手術的病人,我都會安撫他們。然而,世事沒有絕對,手術風險再低,也有例外的情況。最近,我一位不過五十多歲的病人,就因為腎臟生石而不斷在鬼門關徘徊。

這位病人因睾丸腫、發燒來到泌尿科,經掃描發現他的腎臟腫脹,裡頭有石頭導致尿道堵塞,感染細菌進而發燒,在沒有選擇的情況下,他必須做清處腎臟石頭和通輸尿管手術,以免細菌感染越多,情況則越來越嚴重。

手術前,病人必須先接受抗生素注射來殺菌,待情況穩定后才進行手術,通常,近乎99%的病人的病症都會獲得根治。這病人的手術在上個星期五的早上順 利完成,他在12小時后發燒,這情況會發生,一般上是因為是在用鐳射碎石的過程中,細菌濺出並且滲入血液導致血炎而至,一般病人若有抗生素殺菌加上本身的 抵抗力強的話,發燒的情況維持不久就會自動退燒。但是,他卻是被’安全’排除在外的那個。

當天半夜一點多鐘,我在睡夢中接到醫院的電話說病人血壓降低,呼吸困難,情況十分危急。這不是我一個醫生可獨自處理的情況,我必須要有麻醉師蔡醫師 協助控制病人的血壓。然而,當晚麻醉師並沒有on call,我半夜撥電話去,他是有權利不接聽的。那一刻,我心裡很焦急,電話那頭傳來’嘟嘟’聲時,我在心裡’求神拜佛’,希望蔡醫師接聽電話。

電話那頭有人回應了,我把病人的情況說給他聽,最後說了一句,’你如果不幫這個病人的話,他就會死了。’
蔡醫師回我了一句’我知道’,然後二話不說,馬上飆車到醫院去。那個凌晨,我們一直在緊急室忙到凌晨四點鐘,才把病人的情況穩定下來。我看見蔡醫師在過程 中是那麼落力的為病人控制血壓,那一刻,我為自己擁有一個講義氣的同事感到自豪,同時,我也為躺在病床上的病人感到幸運。

因病人的血壓下降導致腎臟功能衰退,所以,翌日腎臟內科醫生必須來幫他暫時性洗腎,以便把體內骯髒的血液清洗掉。我和蔡醫師都以為這病人騙過了死 神,然而,星期六下午,他又陷入緊急狀況了,他曾一度心臟停止,我們以為他會因此喪命,然而,經過一番掙扎和搶救,他又恢復了生命跡象。

因清除腎石而引起生命危急的情況是非常少有,這是我回來馬來西亞這幾年來,第一次碰上的棘手緊急情況。這幾天,我為這病人擔憂不已。每次去探望他, 我都看見他那很孝順的女兒寸步不離的守在床邊。自父親入院后,她就很擔憂。她除了很主動去瞭解父親的病情,還上網找很多參考資料,若有疑問就提出來。

我不曉得病人什麽時候才能度過危險期,醫生能做的,都已經努力的、盡全力做了。他三番四次從鬼門關逃了出來,我真不能說他靠的只是運氣而已。若要完全脫離危險期的話,是不是只能靠病人的意志力呢?
我默默地祝福他早日康復。 August 19 2010

李永業 Dr George Lee